This installation presented at Working Method Contemporary explored the conflict that lies within the process of preserving memories. A video monitor is housed inside of a structure containing a window, a small section of the window is exposed to let the viewer peer. The performance video is an hour long and documents me in the same room earlier that week folding the clothes that were laid out on the floor and dipping them into a bath of plaster. All of the clothes belonged to me and each held personal significance. As a I folded each piece I recounted my experience of wearing that item. I placed all of the coated garments into the drawers of the dresser in the space. I relate this to the process of storing events in my memory. I then poured the remaining plaster mixture onto the dresser. The white plaster not only coats the clothes and objects to fix them in time it also removes many of the item's details, creating a new version that is partially the truth and seemingly not as easy to access. This conflict between storing and accessing memories is one I contemplate because I feel that our memories shape our identities, and holding on to them and preserving them is an important part of figuring out who we are. However, conflict ultimately arises when you attempt to solidify an ephemeral moment. This piece is about me asking the viewer to consider this paradox. For the installation part of this performance I wanted to place the viewer somewhere between the past and the present of this futile event that I had created, to allow for a moment of shared contemplation on the desire people have to hold on to the past, and the realization that it can never effectively be done.
photo credit: christina poindexter